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Here are the latest poems I've written. This page will be updated periodically as new poems are added.
Sawyer poetry

Boulevard of broken dreams

I walk alone
silent in the night
pulling my collar up against the wind
was it worth it?
was she?
this is my life now
this is what I must do
the money is what matters
I hate what I have become
my life
what he made me
confidence man
drifter
what happens to a dream deferred
how the he** would I know?
this is who I am
and I hate myself for it.

Fade to Black

A harsh wind washes over me
remembrances
of a bitter past
the life I led
I am alone now
all they took from me
she doesn't know
what I am
to find peace in her arms
not for me
I can never be loved
I can never be free
I must be strong
show them
I am in charge
hated
feared
this is how it must be
they thought they could trust me
I showed them
who has the upper hand now?
Locke will look like a fool
this is my life now
you must despise me
no peace and no forgiveness
I have always been alone.

What becomes a legend most

What becomes a legend most?
a look
a smile
a tone of voice
the way he walks
or says hello
what is it
that grabs my attention
makes me pause
take a second glance
what is that je ne sais quoi
that moves me
makes me ask who is that man
makes me laugh
or makes me cry
not everyone has it
though they may try
that perfect intangible
mysterious spark
I know it when I see it
flashing across my screen in the dark
that hidden quality
special something
I can't describe
that's what becomes a legend most

Desmond poetry

Someday

Someday
I will be far away
from here
where I can see the sun
feel the wind
and the rain
be free
someday
I won't have this duty
this responsibility
to save the world
someday
I'll be able to sleep `till noon
wrapped in my love's healing embrace
free from worry
despair
someday
my father will be proud of me
love me
take me as I am
duty surrounds me
time hangs heavy
it may be too late for Kelvin
but not for me
I will do my duty
bide my time
until they come
I will be free
someday

Requiem

I am all alone now
Kelvin is gone
freed of his mortal encumbrances
I am adrift
tossed on a sea of anguish
despair
who will comfort me
share my burden
be my friend
time hangs heavy
duty calls
I must be strong
he would want me to
I must go on
I will survive
somehow.

The measure of a man

You have to be strong
you have to be fast
you have to be tough
is it enough?
you have to be brave
you have to be smart
it's never enough
is that the true
measure of a man?
caring
compassion
love for children
and that special someone
emotion
shedding a tear
laughing heartily
comforting a friend
strength
spirituality
faith
love
that is the true measure of a man.




Shattered

I am lost
tossed unmercifully on waves of despair
the bottle comforts me
my only peace is found in inebriation's embrace
oblivion
to slip gently into the arms of morpheus
to forget
what I've done
what I am
all I've lost
to forget
her
the pain burns deeply
searing
how did this happen
I could have been happy
I'd end it all but I haven't the will
this is my life now
alone
no rest
and no forgiveness
I know what I must do.








Locke poetry

House of pain

Darkness washes over me
rolling clouds of doubt
was I wrong?
was she?
all I wanted was to be happy
I did it for us
rejected
tossed aside like yesterday's garbage
I gave her my heart
my soul
asked for nothing but love in return
anger too strong
blinding
why won't she listen?
understand
I wanted to spend my life with her
I thought she loved me
unconditionally
one more dream destroyed
smashed on the rocks of fate
is this my destiny?
to end up alone
I am torn
shattered
my wounds the kind no doctors can heal
I am lost
alone
this is my life now
I have always been alone.

Fire and ice

I am fire
you are ice
I am the moth
you are the flame
I am the wound
You are the bandage
I was lost
you found me
I was hurt
you helped me heal
I was broken
you made me whole
I am forgiving
you are angry
I am conflicted
you are convinced
I need understanding
you can't give it
I am here
and you are gone.

Destiny's child

I am alive
free
I feel a connection to this place again
its lifeforce flows through me
makes me whole
I am wounded
but remain unbroken
believer once more
my burden has been lifted
seeker
acolyte
the spirit of the island calls me
I will follow
I will learn
everything it can teach me
the sun warms my face
breathes life into me
I drink deeply
from its cup
few understand
the gifts it can bestow
the price is not too steep
I will follow
I will listen
the island calls to me
I hear it
it is saying
welcome home.


Hurt

I am torn
tossed on the waves of doubt
can I trust him?
is he one of them?
does it matter?
uncertainty runs through me
sharp
biting
like the metal that tears my flesh
I am no longer in control
I know not what to do
pain surrounds me now
burning
liquid fire
my legs are trapped
useless
white hot pain sears me
I can't think
will someone come?
it's almost time for the code to be input
will he make it?
am I being tested?
I did what was asked of me
should I have trusted him?
this mysterious man from Minnesota
is he somehow behind this?
was his map a trick?
I hope they find the answers
chaos surrounds me
who is pulling the strings
is this all a game?
we suspect
do they already know?

Torn

Part of me died today
you walked away
leaving me standing
alone
rejected
all the money in the world can't heal the hurt
fill the emptiness inside me
make me whole again
you left
you didn't care
I was crushed
shattered in millions of tiny pieces
all I wanted was for us to be together
to be happy
always
was it too much to ask?
to hope for?
You drove away without a second glance
part of me died today
and it's his fault.



Non-Lost related poems

The Desert is bleeding

The desert is bleeding
the government is lying
the oil is flowing
the people are dying
freedom is eroding
privacy gone
terrorists around every corner
protest signs on the lawn
e-mails scrutinized
affiliations known
everyone's a suspect
every letter a threat
the patriot act is unconstitutional
that hasn't stopped anyone yet.


Meditations on the abyss 3

who are you?
a name? a number? data in a government computer?
where are you going?
to church? to school? to a meeting of a suspect organization?
what do you want?
peace, delight, trouble
adolescent rebellion?
to subvert the dominant paradigm?
we're watching and waiting,
we know where you go, who you see, and what you do.
one sign, one word, one act of sedition,
you're on our list
this is for your own good,
for national security
do the right thing and be rewarded
rebel and pay the price
who do you serve and who do you trust?
we know and we're watching
for your own good.


And the land cried out...

In the beginning there was land and there was the coalition
the coalition invaded the land
in the name of liberation
the coalition said
"rejoice, you are free"
and the land cried out
"our cities lie in ruins"
the coalition said
"your dictator is gone"
and the land cried out
"our children are starving"
the coalition said
"we'll give you a new government"
and the land cried out
"our families are dead"
the coalition said
"we know what's best"
and the land cried out
"our environment is poisoned"
the coalition said
"this war was just"
and the world cried out
"who wins and who loses? who profits and who dies? war is not the answer."